when it rains it pours

I love the quote, when it rains it pours, and well thats totally true. When it rains it pours. And on this rainy sunday it is certainly pouring. And today kicks off the worst week in the world for just about everybody. Spring fever. A week till spring break. Midterms week. Exams, Quizzes, and Papers, on top of fighting with roommates, family, friends, significant others, you name it, its happening. All around me its happening. You cant stop it and you certainly cant avoid it. All of this stress is all bottled up and shaken up and its bound to come exploding out like putting an mentos is a diet coke bottle.

Theres only so much you can do in a week like this, I just wish i knew what that was. Balls to the walls. Keep moving till either you cant go anymore or the week is over whichever happens first. So heres my plan for the week. Plenty of dunks, little sleep if any, and dont stop till it says 5:45 on thursday night....

Holding my Breath

So today I finished it all. everything is in. my grad school application is complete. and now comes the worst part... waiting. I suck at waiting! Im nervous, anxious, and terrified. What if they say no? What if Im not good enough? What if I cant afford it?

But on the bright side of it all Im really excited and cant wait to see what happens.

gone

Gone. This semester is almost over. grad school is approaching. friends are getting married, getting appartments, going off into the real world, and where I am? What I am I doing? Grad school, more school, more money, more time, that everyone seems to tell me its not worth. Escaping this place, escaping this world, is exhilerating and terrifying at the same time. Im done here, Ive done all I can and all I want to, but this place has been my home, this is where I found me and where I lost me, and leaving a place that is such a part of me is scary. There will be those that I miss, those that mattered then but will not matter later, and those that I simply cant wait to forget. Forgetting wont be easy or simple, but if its whats best, then it is what it is. And maybe its not forgetting, its just getting past everything that was and moving on to what is.