Im scared. You know I am and you fuel the fear. I know Im blowing it up to be bigger than it is but I also know that I hate that i care because I know that now that I care I cant let you go back there. I cant let you go back into a bad situation even though i wont let you lose everything over me. Im just a stupid girl with stupid feelings that are completely irrelevent to the real world emotions that are in existance. so... now what. do i wait for you? do i pray for you? do i yell? scream? beg? cry?