my tell all... part two

So Ive got shit to add.

S- SCREW YOU!! you only want me when you cant have me because it is a fucking game to you. well im  done playing your game. no more head games no more waiting for you to figure your shit out no more just being the girl you shit on. Im not doing it. Its not fair. And on top of that you undermined my relationship and force me to be something Im not. It doesnt matter what card you play now becuase either way I hold the trump card and she is amazing! You wanna be friends sure but its on my time not yours and it isnt like it was before. No cuddling, No kisses, No late night talks. None of it. I am happy and I am happy with out you making me cry.

BD- I get it. I understand where you are coming from and where your girl is coming from. And I respect it. I dont like it but I respect it and now that I have experienced it I have a greater respect for it, you, and her.

MB- get your shit together girl. no judgement i swear but really come on. stop telling me how hard it is and accept the consequences of your actions. you have a handful of people that love you and A and you have used and abused them to the point of exhaustion. half of us are only sticking around for A and the other half are only there becuase they half too. Do me a favor? Stop lying to me. I told you i would help you but that means you have to tell me the truth. If you want someone to talk to just say so dont tell me A is sick get me paniced just to find out that she is just a baby with a cold. And stop trashing my girlfriend, propositioning her, or trying to kiss her when Im out of sight. first of all she is suppose to be your best friend, so treat her that way. you have done nothing but treat her like shit and I am not okay with that. And just becuase she tells you how it is doesnt mean you need to jump down her throat. also, next time you right her a love letter you better make sure that im not standing in the room with her. oh! annnnddddddd you fucked up. you cheated. you got pregnant. you were with her and that boy at the same time. your loss stop hating on her becuase she is with me. Point two, next time you want to make advances on my girl you better make sure that she wont tell me. how dare you disrespect my relationship with her and disrespect me and more importantly disrespectt her. And lastly, DO NOT ask my girlfriend if she wants to have a secret relationship with you behind my back EVER again. kapeach? I have lost all respect for you and the only reason i want to be included in your life is for that little girl becuase she doesnt deserve to have people bailing on her. you on the other hand, people always leave right?


and to add some funny things....

(304):  He just told me that he goes squirrel hunting. NO LONGER BANGABLE.

(845):  Count me out. I seem to have semen induced blindness in one eye.

(708):  Welp. I just hopped out of his window to avoid meeting his parents... happy monday!

(770): Just went outside to gather hail to use to make margaritas since we ran out of ice. That's God's way of helping us out.

(413): im probably shirtless right now with a bottle of jack watching horton hears a who. this is a judgement free zone.

it doesnt get any better than this....

Before I start I need to say that this is my life, and it is real. As crazy and stupid and mixed up dramatic as it seems, I dont want it to be any different becuase if it werent for the people and the heart break and the girl meets girl drama, I wouldnt have a story to tell or the friends that I have. Im smiling, Im laughing, and Im loving my life and every detail in it.

I am officially a horrible person. Now one may think that this RA basketball captain SGA president girl couldn’t truly have a mean bone in her body but it’s there. I think it is what is hiding under the shattered cynical pieces of my not so whole heart. Some days I feel like the Grinch and Im just waiting to get the part where my heart grows three sizes and bust threw the simplistic x-ray machine that Dr. Seuss created and then there’s the other side of me that thinks that if my heart grows more then it will just break more and the bigger the heart the bigger and harder the puzzle is put back together again.

So back to my being a horrible person. Why am I so horrible, because one of my friends who I have the hugest crush on but can never seem to get her to stick around, just broke up with the boy she chose over me. And I am horrible because I couldn’t be happier. I know she is hurting and she is trying really hard to be this hardass stubborn girl that I know and dare say love but she is hurting. He wrecked her and ruined her faith in love and people for that fact. And now Im sitting here, writing this, staring at my phone thinking maybe she will pick me this time. When she is ready maybe this time I will be worth it, worth the risk. But now I am her. Stuck between this crazy beautiful girl with a stubborn, devious personality, and this boy who is the only boy I’d ever marry. S has been the world to me. We have spent this past week together and Im not quite sure what it all means. He won’t commit to anything but it’s no secret that he and I are this cute fight like we are already married couple who just is. We seem to be everything every other couple has without the label that can seemingly ruin a relationship.

Oh, forgot to mention TB, dumped me, left me complete broken crying at quarter of one to M while S made the twenty minute drive in nine minutes to be with me and make me feel better. So back to S, he’s amazing. And we both enjoy each other’s company. Even B thinks we are cute together. And then there’s this girl. And by now you probably have guessed that this girl, is KC. Yes world, ssshhheee’ssss back. I wasn’t expecting it. I haven’t heard from her in ages and well I had kind of gotten use to her absence, which doesn’t mean that I haven’t tried to contact her cause I definitely did. But out of the blue she texted me. We have been talking all weekend and then today tells me she broke up with the boy that she picked over me, while reminding me that being a helpless romantic wasn’t going to help me win the who is a bigger hard ass me or her contest we now have going. KC is stubborn, obnoxious, devious, challenging, cocky, caring, and hard on the outside warm and fuzzy on the inside. That feeling of maybe she is the girl from me is almost equal to the feeling that I am suppose to ride into the sunset with S. So what do I do, who do I pick.  

I dont have an asnwer at the moment but I do know this.... I like the fact that for the last few days I have done nothing but smile.


Shot twenty: A smile is an inexpensive way to change your looks- Charles Gordy

hehehe :)

These are for my project but i thought they were funny.... Enjoy

 Shot 17 - Laughter is the best calerie burner

morning sunshine