"I just want you to know I never meant to hurt you. Sorry. I’m so sorry I just knew I couldn’t do it.
Be just friends. Because I like you. Im sorry and I know. I told you from day one that im not good.
I know it not enough but im sorry. I really am sorry like I feel terrible.
I know nothing bad comes from being friends but you don’t understand me. I swear I never meant to hurt you like I did. "
I said a lot inbetween all of this, and i practically freaked when she said she liked me. This is all Im going to put here on this blog but the jist of our converstation has been saved and the only one who will read it is me and M. I dont know what to do or say or how to feel. I'm just going through the motions. I still get that dopey grin but Im cautious. I dont want to set myself up for heartbreak once again. Im waiting for her to disappear, waiting for her to run, and Im trying so hard not to get my hopes up that she will be around for a while.
Time will tell, and right now I dont know if time is going to be in my favor.